Ryan and I have decided that we are ready to take the next step: We are beginning the process to bring home our next child, Maria, a beautiful three year old girl from Russia. Believe me when I say that it is with no little trepidation and excitement that we move forward with our (first?) adoption. It's terrifying! Just the same as finding out I was pregnant with Rob. Lots of worry and fear and an exhilarating sense of excitement!
I think about Maria constantly, and I worry about her. What is she doing? Does she have enough to eat? Are the caregivers kind to her? And the other kids? What if she gets sick? Is there anyone to hold her and tell her it will be ok? Will she like us? Will Rob and Ella like her? What if she's scared of our dogs? Our family?
I feel like her mommy already. No matter what happens from here on out, she has a piece of my heart-she's in there.
And of course there are days, like yesterday, when I wonder how things will be with three kids. Robby and I were sick, and fortunately, my sister was able to take Ella while Ryan went to work. And I can't help but think: How will I handle three on days like this? But ya know, I can't wait.
And frankly, I think Maria will have tons of fun with Rob and visa versa. I think it will be so great for them to have a built in playmate. Sure, they'll fight sometimes. Isn't that what being siblings is all about? But I love my and Ryan's sisters dearly. I feel so lucky to have them in my life, silently supporting (and not so silently supporting) my kids as they grow up. And Ella will grow up to have a wonderful big sister too.
So.... here we go. If this is meant to be, we'll come up with the money somehow. And then we'll go get our beautiful Russian baby girl. We'll need lots of prayer and lots of support. Here's to adoption!
I think about Maria constantly, and I worry about her. What is she doing? Does she have enough to eat? Are the caregivers kind to her? And the other kids? What if she gets sick? Is there anyone to hold her and tell her it will be ok? Will she like us? Will Rob and Ella like her? What if she's scared of our dogs? Our family?
I feel like her mommy already. No matter what happens from here on out, she has a piece of my heart-she's in there.
And of course there are days, like yesterday, when I wonder how things will be with three kids. Robby and I were sick, and fortunately, my sister was able to take Ella while Ryan went to work. And I can't help but think: How will I handle three on days like this? But ya know, I can't wait.
And frankly, I think Maria will have tons of fun with Rob and visa versa. I think it will be so great for them to have a built in playmate. Sure, they'll fight sometimes. Isn't that what being siblings is all about? But I love my and Ryan's sisters dearly. I feel so lucky to have them in my life, silently supporting (and not so silently supporting) my kids as they grow up. And Ella will grow up to have a wonderful big sister too.
So.... here we go. If this is meant to be, we'll come up with the money somehow. And then we'll go get our beautiful Russian baby girl. We'll need lots of prayer and lots of support. Here's to adoption!
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